Saturday, December 10, 2011

I wouldn't have believed it if I hadn't seen it

I honestly don't follow football, but I heard this on the radio the other day and HAD to share!!

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Perspective about a toxic situation

You may have heard me mention a couple of times (or 20) that I'm having somewhat of a difficult time adjusting to some changes in my assignment at work.  Earlier this week, I received some much needed perspective and Heavenly Father lovingly showed me how ungrateful I was being.

I have a history of abuse, and at least one of  the side effects of  this is not knowing for sure if I am being insecure, or if I am actually being mistreated.  Because of some wonderful friends and wonderful past counselor, my social skills and self esteem have reached heights many people (including myself) thought might never be possible. 

My previous assignment at work involved working with at least one person who is not a safe person for me.  My new assignment (thus far) does not include any such person.  Earlier this week, I had the opportunity to speak to the "unsafe" person on the telephone.  How quickly those old feelings came back to me.  And I instantly excused myself and went to my car to pray and thank Heavenly Father for removing me from that "toxic situation" so that I could continue to grow. 

What perspective!  I will continue to adjust, but all the while (now) remembering what a blessing and opportunity I have been given to be in a more supportive environment. 

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

A Story I told my Husband tonight

Once upon a time in Wisconsin.  There was man who promised his wife  that loved him very much, that he would come downstairs and give her kisses. 

He never came downstairs to give her the kisses.

She died a sorrowful, broken hearted death.

272 kabillion people came to her funeral and kicked the man really hard for not giving her the kisses.

The end.

P.S.--He came downstairs and gave me some kisses.  HE HE HE

Monday, December 5, 2011

Random thoughts

Couldn't decide on a topic today, so you're  getting some random observations.  Enjoy!

1-- I find computer programmers annoying. 

2-- I find it more annoying that I seem to get along with them so well--GAH

3-- I love when you have something you're thinking about and every lesson at church is on that very thing.  Do we make it that way or is it actually that way?  I really don't think it matters.

4-- I've said it before and I'll say it again.  Why can't people (boys) put their dishes IN the sink instead of on the counter BY the sink???

5-- Orange sticks are awesome!

6 -- I hate washing dishes--someday I hope to have either an electric dishwasher or a human dishwasher.  Either one will do.

7 -- I love going to church.  It's fun and you learn stuff.

8 -- I'm starting to think troll dolls are cute.  Please help me.

9 -- Why is it I have no problem washing the clothes and folding the clothes, but I can never seem to get them put away???  Mind boggling

10 -- My family is  very "american" and it works for us, so I'm glad it's turned out this way--mostly--or maybe I'm just glad it's worked out.

11 -- Everyone needs a friend they can be their actual, freaky, weirdo self around.  I'm lucky enough to have the whole "g" clan!  (you know who you are!)

12 -- I find it both odd and refreshing that people guess I'm LDS before I tell them.  Is there a sign on my back I'm not aware of??

13 -- LDS home and amazingly clean home are not the same thing--you have to actually clean your home.  I was really surprised to find that out. 

 Feel free to comment with your own random observations!! 

Friday, December 2, 2011

Mushy, self absorbed post.

Struggling to adapt to the wonderful changes at work (I'm a slow adjuster--the changes are pretty wonderful).  But I'll give myself a break.  It's hard for anyone to go from 10 people telling you what to do all the time to no one even really knowing for sure what they want you to do at all!  How are you supposed to keep busy in a situation like that??!!!

Sorry--just missing Relief Society a little bit lately.  I'll feel better after I go to the temple a week from tomorrow.  That promises to be an excellent trip!  Good, quiet company the whole time!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Things I love about Winter in Wisconsin

1--Everyone looks so cute bundled up in their coats, hats, scarves, mittens, boots, etc, etc, etc

2--Kids get out of school if it's too cold. (-50 wind chill)

3--The mark of a good vehicle is nothing more than if it will start in above mentioned cold (-50 wind chill, and we usually have a good week or so at some point where we never go above 0 degrees)

4--Those rare days when the sun shines and EVERYONE is outside, no matter what the temp.  You just gotta soak up that sun when you can  get it!

5--Hot chocolate

6--Racing season is over (my husband is a RABID racing fan)

7--Also, the hubs hates the cold, so he's around alot in the winter.  :) 

8--Nice warm socks

9--Big sweatshirts--not hoodies--just a sweatshirt

10--Being cold when you first get in bed and all sweaty when you wake up in the morning.

P.S.--You may have noticed I didn't say anything about the snow.  That's not an accident. 

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

How can she sleep without a blankie????  I have no idea.

Monday, November 28, 2011

We're supposed to be working

Today my mind has been on a very thought provoking comment that was made in Relief Society yesterday.  We were discussing Sundays and the Sabbath Day and one sister commented that it is rarely discussed the other way around.  Yes, we are supposed to rest and be quiet on the Sabbath Day--absolutely.  But we're supposed to be working the other six days.  Working--the other six days. 

Now, I'm a working mom, and more than once (alot more than once--there's a reason I follow Nony the slob) I've taken a "night off" because, well I do work.  I reflected on justifying  those actions because I am a working mom and sometimes it is just too hard to come home and work more.  I deserve a night off--don't I??  Yes I do--Sunday night. 

Thinking of this concept in this way had never occurred to me before and I am resolved to change at least my way of thinking.  So I went to the scriptures and I'll be honest in saying that--surprisingly-Leviticus is becoming a favorite of late.

" Six days shall work be done: but the seventh day is the sabbath of rest, an holy convocation; ye shall do no work therein: it is the sabbath of the Lord in all your dwellings."  Leviticus 23:3

Disclaimer---ALL moms are working moms--I am privileged to work outside the home for a wage to help my husband support our family.  So when I say I am a working mom, that is what I am referring to.  As a matter of fact, if the state of my home on any given day were an indication--most would say I am not a "working" mom at all.  LOL 

Sunday, November 27, 2011

It's not about the numbers---but it kind of is.

"It's not about the numbers".  In our branch, we've been hearing that alot lately.  You see, we are right on the verge of having a large enough attendance to merit a larger building.  Our building now is quite small, with a multipurpose room in place of a chapel and a baptismal font under the floor in the Primary room.  There's only one hallway, and still Jessica finds a way to hide from me! 

So, an architect has been retained, plans have been drawn up, and it really looks like this is going to happen sometime in the near future.  Our stake president sent an email to the members of the high council and the bishops in the other units in our stake letting them know today was a "bullet point" Sunday, (one in which attendance is sent to "the home office") and that if their lives permit, a road trip would not be a bad idea. 

I really had to have a talk with myself about this.  First of all, I'm weary of hearing "it's not about the numbers" cuz really it is.  We have to have a certain average attendance or the bigger meetinghouse will not be built until we do.  And I sort of felt like it was cheating a little for our Stake President to ask others in the stake to attend our branch on certain Sundays.  I felt like if it is time for our branch to grow, it will grow.  I ended my self pep talk the way I usually do whenever I doubt anything.  By reminding myself that I know our Stake President to be an inspired leader and if he felt impressed to make that request--then it is appropriate. 

Then I attended my Sacrament meeting this morning.  Not only was it a wonderful meeting, but we achieved our attendance goal.  And I was once again and as usual humbled in my doubt.  So many members brought someone.  Children, step children, neighbors, friends, inactive members came out to assist.  I knew pretty much every one of them and there is not one I would not love to see every single Sunday if not more.  It was lovely to see everyone and only added to the spirit of the meeting.  I realized what our leaders have meant all this time when they've been saying "it's not about the numbers".  It's about the people and the spirit they bring and the love that we feel for them.  Yes, we are a small group, and I for one have been secretly against alot of growth because I like the small group.  However, today taught me that when you know and love everyone in attendance, even a large group can feel like a small group. 

Very grateful for Heavenly Father's patience with me, and that he knows how to  teach me the things I need to learn. 

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Donny Dance Forum

Still makes me happy!! Happy Thanksgiving!!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Everyone likes to feel useful

Recently, I've been given an excellent opportunity at work.  I've been selected to work on a project to replace the billing mainframe.  I moved to the office location where the Business Analysts and Developers (programmers) are and am considered a part of "the team".  This means going from a work environment that is extremely production driven to a work environment that is extremely NOT production driven.

I'll be honest--I'm struggling to adjust.  I think the hubs might be enjoying it though.  Since I am feeling very not necessary at work right now, and am doing a lot of sitting and reading and composing scenarios to test, when I come home from work I can't wait to do things.  I've been running around, doing housework and helping him with things that he's doing, and just generally getting caught up on things. 

It's a little amusing how the atmosphere at work affects the atmosphere at home, and I'm surprised how my first "knee jerk" response to feeling un necessary was to over compensate at home.   Cute.

Monday, November 21, 2011

I wonder if I do that

Just listening to Christian radio earlier today, there was a discussion about some scriptures in Leviticus.  The gentleman running the program admonished us to not treat holy things as if they were common. 

He mentioned his frustration at others of his faith constantly (or so it seems) talking about the "precious blood" or some other precious thing.  His point is that if something is precious to us, we should not be constantly speaking of it in idle conversation.

I agree--to an extent.  I have been privileged to have some powerful spiritual experiences and confirmations.  Some of them so intensely personal and revelatory to me personally, that there is no way I would even want to share the details with others.  I firmly believe in the "line upon line" concept.  Everyone learns key doctrines when and how they are ready.  Things have been opened up to me when I was ready and able to receive them.  I love this about Heavenly Father.  He doesn't give us more than we're able to understand and receive.

At the same time, I remember teaching more than one lesson in Young Women's and being as specific as I dared about such topics as boys, dating, marriage, divorce, temple worship, etc.  I do this because I feel it is important to be specific.  Most of my Young Women's leaders (back in the day) were not specific and there were some key things that I did not understand.  I want these girls to understand--to know the importance of their marriage choices and the problems caused by divorce.  I want them to know their divine nature and that any one who would have them forget or act beneath that is a second class citizen on their best day.  They can choose for themselves, but I don't want it to be because I did not do my best to make them understand the seriousness of the choices they are making right now--at this point in their life.   I tell them how I feel when I'm in the temple.  I help them in every way I can think of to understand who they are. 

I still found myself wondering, in the act of being specific and trying to help these wonderful Young Women, am I making light of serious things?  I hope not, I don't mean to--but the thought remains.  I suppose I'll have to ask the only one who really knows won't I??  Oh well.  I'll keep you posted.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Do you ever feel like???

You have to fight for everything and no one takes you seriously?  I feel that way sometimes.  Wouldn't it be great if we lived in a world where all ideas were good ideas and no one ever felt compelled to ask why?  Or argue or disregard everything you say?

No--that would not be a good world at all.  But it's nice to think about it sometimes. 

Saturday, November 19, 2011

YAY for Returned Missionaries!!!

Today, one of my favorite people on the planet is coming home from his mission in the Marshall Islands.

Apparently, this is the airport.  WOW!  They are islands in the Pacific and after being there for two years, I'm super glad that Jake is coming home to 38 degrees and possible snow later today.  What a welcome home!

I have missed my dear, dear friend so much and cannot wait until my schedule permits me to go and have a proper visit with him.

Meanwhile, this afternoon is not the proper time for a visit with Jacob G because I have to drop off and pick up my daughter at the movie theater.

Jessica invited me to go along with her and her friends and of course, I said NO THANK YOU.  I am not interested in the intense drama associated with these films.  But I hope Jessica enjoys it.  Remember when you were 14 and fairy tale romances seemed more than possible but likely?  I do. 

Friday, November 18, 2011

Young Women in Excellence

This week, we held our Young Women in Excellence program.  I'll be honest and say that I was more than a little nervous about it.  We did not get a chance to practice, and we did not have everything completely ironed out before the "moment of truth". 

The program turned out beautifully!  Our Young Women are so amazing!  Their talks were insightful, spiritual, and surprisingly honest and open.  They couldn't wait until the end to show all of their talent tables to the adults in attendance and it was an absolutely beautiful evening.

I'll admit, when I was called to serve in the Young Women, I thought Heavenly Father was either joking or that this was going to be an interesting new way to punish me.  This has not been the case at all.  Not for one minute.  I am constantly touched and amazed at these girls.  What a gift it is for me to be able to serve them.  I am grateful.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

What an evening!

Since I am pretty cheap when it comes to paying for movies, I consider it positively providential that one of my good "work friends" likes the same movies as I do and buys them immediately when they come out on video.  I spent the better part of this evening watching the following film for the first time:
Now I don't mind saying that I'm one of  those people who gets upset when movies aren't exactly true to the books.  With that being said, I think they did a good job with this one.  There was some dramatic license taken, and some of the things in the book that I really wanted to see on film weren't there, but I enjoyed it tremendously.  I was hooked from the first minute to the last even though I knew the story and how it would end.  And while yes, I am a HUGE Weasley fan, one of  the reasons I'm so happy with the movie is because they did justice to the character who was more complex and human and beautiful than the others.  (This is my opinion--you're free to have your own)

What a beautifully talented actor to be able to portray at least a part of what Snape must have gone through with almost nothing but facial expressions. 

Sunday, November 13, 2011

What a stinker!

After a great Saturday at the temple, I usually enjoy going to church and spreading my "temple glow" for all to see.  I love going to the temple and love the general happiness that lingers afterwards.

However, last night, I was up most of the night with the most horrible headache I've had for quite a while.  It felt like I was over heated, so I stripped out of my pajammies and laid on top of the covers for a while to cool off.  Nothing.  When it came time to get up and get Jessica up, I was dizzy and felt like I would most surely barf all over everything, so I stayed home from church.  Not a frequent occurrence I assure you. 

When I was finally able to drag my keester downstairs to say hello to my daughter without passing out or throwing up, we thought maybe I was dehydrated.  I drank and drank and drank water water water water.  Nothing.  I was miserable most of the day.  Jessica's dad picked her up and I felt horrible at having had to spend all day curled up into a little ball barely being able to move.

A while after she left, Tom informed me that he knew what my problem was.  Jessica had jacked the heat up to about 75 degrees.  I WAS roasting!  No wonder laying outside the covers didn't work!  No wonder drinking the water didn't work!  GRRRRRR  What a stinker!!!

I guess I still love her.  She's so cute and all.  Here's a pic of the kids that went from our branch and did baptisms yesterday in the St Paul Temple.  Since there was only 1 young man and we had an assigned number of baptisms to perform, this wonderful young priesthood holder did over 50 baptisms in one "sitting".  What a trooper!  All of the girls did 15-20.  What troopers!  So proud of these kids I can't believe it!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

It's been a couple of weeks

I saw this today and wanted to share it.  I never would have considered myself an "introvert", but every single one of these things is true about me.  Interesting.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Toe touching at Stake Conference

This past weekend, the Wausau, Wisconsin stake had their stake conference.  It was fabulous as usual.  We typically have a Saturday evening "adult" session and the usual Sunday morning session.  I attended both and was well fed spiritually.  I've come to expect nothing less of our fabulous, amazing and wonderful Stake Presidency.  They are all good men who make me smile each time I think of them.

Like lots of other LDS members, at least some of the fun of Stake Conference is visiting with the other members.  So after the Sunday morning session, I quickly went up on to the stand to sit on the organ bench with Sister Munk and visit with her a few minutes.  And yes, she can TOTALLY play while we visit.  She's cool like that!

Anyways, conversation turned to both of our fairly new exercise routines and before we knew it, we were on the stand, right after stake conference (many people still in the chapel) showing each other how we could touch our toes!  After sitting for 2 hours in church!  That's pretty awesome right???!!!  Well, the temple president and his lovely wife seemed very impressed.  Honestly, I just can't figure out why folks think I'm such a silly head!! 

Friday, October 21, 2011

New Exercise Routine

Okay so I've written a little about my new fascination with exercise and attempting to make my body a little stronger.  I've been swimming and treadmilling and some other things as well about once or twice a week and have absolutely been loving the results.  I'm stronger and feel better and can now change clothes in a women's locker room in front of the other women (that could be a plus AND a minus).

I usually work out at the workout room and pool located in the dungeon regions of my work because it is free.  However, since I'm on vacation this week, one of my awesome friends has been inviting me to go to her gym and workout with her during the day on a free 10 day guest pass.  I've been 3 times already, am going again today and am loving it!  I am loving feeling my muscles, feeling that much stronger, and am really starting to love my body (or how I envision it will look after a kabillion more workouts).

So, I've made the life changing (ha ha) decision to bump up the workouts to 3-4 times per week.  With that being said, "feeling" your muscles is both good and bad.  Especially when they're screaming in protest like mine were after the first two workouts (I have been going for about an hour, rather than my usual half hour). After doing a little research to determine if these were normal aches and pains or if I had injured myself,  I bought stock in the following company and have been pushing through.  So excited!


Wednesday, October 19, 2011

It's a hat

One of my favorite blogs that I follow is called A Hermit Mom's Cave.  This woman is hilarious and wonderful all at the same time. 

Anyways, she had a post about hats and asked that we post pictures of ourselves in a hat.  This is the closest thing I could find.

A dollar store tiara counts as a hat, right????

FYI--for anyone who knows me.  I am making a face at Brother Wall and Mariah.  So there!  He he he.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

The Dreaded Placement Test

A while ago, I posted about needing to schedule and take a placement test as I am attempting to go to college and become a midwife when I grow up.  Well, I took the test yesterday and........I aced it!!  There were sections on reading comprehension, sentence structure and arithmetic/algebra.  My scores were 99%, 91%, and 96% respectively.  YAY!!!!!!  It looks like I'm goin' to college! 

On the flip side, I remembered that nauseating feeling right before the test starts when they take your purse away so you can't cheat and stuff.  The fear when you read a question and know that you have NO IDEA what the answer is.  And the dread when you're watching the testing center lady print your score and know this is going to be one of the most humiliating experiences of your life.  But it wasn't. 

Are you sure I'm ready for this?????

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Preparing for Young Women in Excellence

I serve in the Young Women's Presidency in the branch I live in.  I am the second counselor.  This is my first time to serve in Young Women's and so far, I am loving it!

Tonight we were beginning to prepare for YW in Excellence, (if you're not sure what this is, you can go here) .  The girls were to bring the dresses they wanted to wear (this is typically a "dressy" event) so that we could make sure they were modest and did not need any alterations.  We asked that if any girls had more than one dress that they bring those as well as some of the girls did not have a dress that was for a dressy event.  For the standards of dress we are looking for these girls to dress by, you can go here).

A few girls brought extra dresses.  As we were looking through them for the girls to try on, it quickly became apparent that some of the dresses brought would need additional items to make them modest.  As I pondered, I wondered if the girls had dresses like this because that is how they are dressing for these school dances, etc. 

We made sure that the girls knew they had to have something to cover up on the night of the program and made plans to bring extra "cover ups" just in case. 

As I came home and got ready to settle in for the evening, I was still pondering how we as their leaders could most effectively portray the importance of dressing as a Young Woman of Value.  Who values herself and others. 

How can we show these young ladies their divine nature and value?  How do we get them to see who they are and who they can become?  How beautiful they are?  How much they are loved?  It is documented over and over that Satan is sneaky and will trick you one shade of grey at a time. 

I realize this is not a hanging offense, but it helps me realize the importance of our examples as their leaders.  And the importance of loving them, and letting them know we love them.  Not just letting them know, but showing them all of the time, every time we're together.  I guess I'm just going to have to keep on giving out those hugs  :) 

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Am I being too judgy??? Me????

I work with several ladies and one young man (I say young man, he's 28ish).  Most of the ladies are grandma types who have worked at this same company for 30-40 years.  That's right folks, I said 30-40 years.  That's quite a while.  As such tenured employees, they've seen the onset of computers, several mainframe operating systems, etc etc etc. 

Recently, as an "apple polishing" technique, I presented an idea to our supervisor to turn one of the tasks our unit processes into an entirely paperless process.  Before the analysts were writing out the check requests and there was alot of paper going back and forth--write it out and put it here, supervisor approves and puts it here, analysts requests and puts it here, etc.  I took that same process and put it online.  I spent days, literally days, creating a form that was pleasing to every one and every circumstance I could think of.

Now, hurrah!  my idea has been implemented.  As you can imagine, the more tenured employees are having difficulty with the procedures.  It seems to be so confusing to them and I have spent the last few days puzzled as to how it could possibly be so confusing.  "They're just being rude because they don't want to do it."  "UGH"  "They're not even trying--how could they NOT get this"  These were just some of the thoughts that were going through my head as I explained for the umpteenth time how to save a document and give it a different name.

Then something occurred to me.  Maybe I was the one being rude.  While I am starting  to feel a little older, some of these ladies have been in the work force since I was an infant.  Way before computers and saving documents and different versions of word, excel, and other programs.  Maybe they DON'T know how to open a document in one location, give it a new name, and save it in another location.  They only know how to do what they've been doing.  And when I really think about it,  new things are often confusing for me too.  Especially when it involves something I'm not that comfortable with in the first place. 

WOW--you mean it's not about me???  How odd would that be?  I'm just glad I came up with this attitude adjustment on my own instead of having to have my kneecaps broken before I realize the problem.  :) 

And just an update--I talked with my son Jacob today (see previous post) and he is feeling better and seems to be okay.  Another prayer answered.  I love how that works!

Monday, October 10, 2011

A troubling day

This morning I found out that a good friend of my son Jacob's committed suicide last night.  My son Jacob is 17 and lives with his grandparents in Hernando, MS.  He has had somewhat of a troubled life and things are FINALLY starting to look up for him.  He has been able to maintain long term close friendships and is going to school and seems to be doing well.

I am sorry for Jacob's loss and the loss of the family of this young man.  I had met this friend once and he seemed like a very regular young man.  Fun loving and mischievous; like  boys that age should be.  He was a good friend to Jacob at a time when he very much needed to know that such friends existed.

Just to let everyone know how shallow and horrible I really am---I'm so sorry for this family and their loss and cannot imagine what they must be going through.  They will be in my thoughts and prayers for some time.  But at the same time, I am grateful my son was not one of the friends that was there when this event occurred.  The only reason he wasn't is because of a broken tail light and not being allowed to drive after dark.  Just the thought of Jacob having to try to deal with witnessing something as horrible as a suicide on top of everything he has already been through is almost unbearable.  I am so grateful Heavenly Father is watching out for my (His)  child when I cannot.  And I pray He will support and comfort the family of  this young man during such a difficult and heartbreaking time.

Young people today are in enemy territory and Satan is pulling out all the stops to keep them from living up to their potential.  I just have to wonder what is happening in the world that so many young people find no desire to grow up, grow old and live.  It is a sad thing  that anyone would feel such despair and my heart breaks for all who do. 

My earnest prayers are with the family and loved ones of this young man and I hope that they are able to find some comfort. 

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Bad day!

Bad day!  Really bad!  Super bad!  Fantastically, unbelievably bad! 

Think I'll just share a pic that makes me smile every time I see it.  Enjoy!!

I feel better already!! 

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

A story that impressed me

I read this story off another blog and really super duper wanted to share it.

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:

“Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.

But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.
Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: “How amazing am I ?! “
So inspirational!

Now, this is not to insinuate in any way that I would ever vocally or mentally refer to anyone (including myself) as either a whale or fat.  But I thought the concept and thought process behind this was extremely wonderful!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Supportive friends

She's always up for an adventure!

He supports me whether he agrees with me or not and never ever says anything he knows I won't like.  Unless he knows I need to hear it!

I can't even think about her without feeling loved without measure!

She makes me smile and reminds me that appearances are not always correct.

This is a horrible picture, but the only one I have of the lady who tells me I'm awesome every time she sees me and says it so sincerely that I believe her!

These two are awesome!

And the one I would never even want to live without.  She tells corny jokes with me and laughs just as hard as I do.  She makes me feel pretty.  She makes me smile when I'm sad.  She'll never tell anyone how much I can actually eat before I get sick (it's alot).  She gets my sense of humor and not many do.  She knows when I'm trying to be funny and it's not working out.  She knows all of my secrets and will never tell and will never allow me to dwell on them or use them to make myself feel small. 

For a gal who did not have many close friends as an adult at all until the last 5 years or so, I've sure made up for lost time!!  How blessed am I???

Monday, October 3, 2011

Second guessing, or am I just rambling

A while ago, well, early this year--I had received a pretty strong "inkling" that I should pursue this going back to school thing I've been talking about for like a decade.  I spoke with my husband about it, and since I wanted to (after much thought and prayer) start really slow with a CNA class, eventually (hopefully) ending up a midwife, he stated he would be supportive to one class at a time.  This is a BIG deal!  He does not like me away from home in the evenings and doesn't want me to get over burdened or too busy so that I can't keep up with my family obligations.  A priority he knows is important to me and has a tremendous effect on my self esteem.

I finally went to the tech school here in town, got an application, finally filled it out and sent it in, and finally heard back.  Now I have to call and schedule a placement test.  In the midst of all of this, I've had serious promptings to get this done immediately so that I can leave my current place of employment.  Now, it isn't a bad company to work for at all, but the atmosphere in the area I work in is not conducive to my "not feeling like a worthless piece of crap all the time" goals. 

Then, I was given an amazing opportunity to be assigned to a huge project for the company.  This is a way out of my current area.  I thought, "well maybe I was wrong about that school stuff".  "Perhaps I was just unhappy". 

Well, things are happening at work that are difficult to describe.  There is sabotage, false witnessing, etc, and the list goes on and on.  I suddenly found myself trying to devise a plan of how I could participate in the project while distancing myself from those I am being sent to work with. 

Now, I was still thinking I had been off base about the school idea (will I ever "get it"??).  Then, this morning in my scripture reading, I read about the people of King Lamoni and how they wanted to distance themselves from the non believers so they came up with a new name of Anti Nephi Lehies.  It occurred to me that this was similar to what I was trying to do, only without the leaving and disassociating (which is kind of a necessary part of distancing oneself).  As I drove to work, I became more and more upset the closer I got to the building and realized this happens almost every day. 

This is why I need to go to school.  This is why I need to do something different.  Not because I am not righteous enough, or faithful enough, or grateful enough, or anything enough.  This is just not where I need to be.  I work for a good company with some good people and have good benefits and have finally been able to make some friends (it takes me sooo long).  But I believe there is something different I need to be doing.  So tomorrow, I will call and pay the $20 fee and schedule the test and start on my road to a more care giving career. 

Why do we second guess ourselves?  It just takes longer that way and you have to learn things the hard way.  Wish me luck!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

I won! I won!!

I can't believe I won!  A while ago, I entered a giveaway on this blog and I won a beautiful handcrafted necklace made by the blogger's husband!

I've already worn it once and gotten some compliments on it and I love it!

I've been entering giveaways right and left trying to win a copy of her new book shown below.  I haven't won yet, but believe me, I intend to keep trying!  Thanks Melanie! 

Not My Type by Melanie Jacobson

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Cutest commercial ever!

I've never owned a volkswagen, nor do I even know whether or not it's a quality product.  But I smile every time I see this commercial!!!!  That's got to count for something!!!

Monday, September 26, 2011

General Relief Society meeting

This past Saturday we had an extremely busy day in our family.  We went to this festival along with everyone else on the planet (not kidding--there were too many people).  It was similar to a county fair, but without the rides.  There was food and flea markets and booths etc, etc, etc.  When the hubs and I decided to attend this festival, we had no idea it would be as crowded as it was.  There were waaayyy too many people.  It didn't take long to figure out that a  couple who doesn't like crowds or, in our case, has some serious spatial issues has no business at this festival. 

We were able to salvage the day however, by taking a nice long scenic route home and enjoying visiting with each other.  I arrived home at 5:10, put my skirt on and ran over  to the church house for the Relief Society broadcast. 

As usual, it was wonderful.  All of the talks were great, but also as usual (sorry to be so unlike most of the other blog posts I have read) my favorite talk was by Sister Thompson.  For some reason she just speaks to my heart. 

She spoke of the past year or so of her life and going through her parents' home and belongings since they have recently passed away and the things she found there.  It gave her courage to read the journals and patriarchal blessings of her parents and grandparents.  One of her grandmothers had even received a promise that Satan would have no power over her.  What a wonderful promise! 

The most thought provoking quote for me was :  "When the time comes for others to look through our belongings, will they find evidence we kept our covenants?"  Will my children and grandchildren know how much I love going to church, how much I love the gospel, how sacred my temple covenants are to me?  How many mind blowing experiences I've had in the temple?  How many wondrous gifts of gospel understanding I have received simply by asking?  If that doesn't motivate me to do better at journaling and bearing my testimony to those around me, I'm not sure anything will.

Keeping Covenants brings joy and peace

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

New recipe

Budget-Friendly Meals: Peanut Chicken

I tried this recipe tonight for supper and it turned out fabulous! I did serve it over drained ramen noodles instead of rice since my darling hubs doesn't care for rice, but it was still fabulous!

Wordless Wednesday

These two are really cute together and love each other a ton! They make me smile!

Monday, September 19, 2011

Feeling Better

If you've read the last few weeks of entries, you've probably picked up that I've been a little blue in the gills.  However, last week, I had a heart to heart of sorts with my branch president and I have really felt much better since then.  I always find it thought provoking how just having someone validate my insecurities or share with me that they feel the same way sometimes is so comforting to me. 

That led me to thinking of the atonement.  Our Savior knows every emotion, every hurt feeling, every betrayal.  He chose to actually feel those things so that He could help us that much more.  Because there is not one of us that he could spare--not one. 

Is that a part of why that concept is so comforting?  I think it helps everyone to have someone to identify with. 

We also had an excellent Sabbath this week, with talks on personal revelation and obedience.  Those two items are so intertwined.  One brother challenged us to ask ourselves why we are obedient.  He listed 3 possible reasons:
To obtain blessings
Love of Heavenly Father

I wasn't sure I saw my reasoning in any of those reasons.  I obey just because I like the way I feel when I am worthy to have the Holy Ghost present in my life.  I've been without and the difference is noticeable.  And I mean noticeable.  But also I want to please Heavenly Father.  I guess you could sum it up in a comment made at BYU-P by Glenn Pace waaaaayyy back in 1987---we all want to please our Father, but the more we try to please Him and thank Him for our blessings, the more blessings we receive, so we are constantly and eternally under this mountain of blessings our Heavenly Father is thoroughly enjoying heaping upon us.  I cannot think of a more wonderful problem to have!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Just what I needed to hear!

In case you haven't noticed, I 've been a little discouraged lately.  I went to the temple on Saturday and had a wonderful time, which made me feel a little better.  I went to church on Sunday and heard some excellent talks and lessons, which also helped me feel better.  In Sunday School, the teacher included a scripture in the lesson which to me said "this one's for you---hang in there".  It was 1 Corinthians 2:9 "But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love Him.".  That promise just blows my mind.  What a wonderful thought! 

I also, tried forgetting myself and providing a little service to someone who hadn't been feeling well, and then came home, and later that evening watched the CES fireside with Elder and Sister Oaks.  Sister Oaks' portion was also directed right at me.  She's specifically speaking to singles, but I think it applies to everyone.

Elder and Sister Oaks devotional

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Faith or Forgiveness???

The internet troubles my family was having last week have been remedied, so YAY!!  I can make  blog posts again. 

I have been experiencing some discouragement lately due in part to the behavior of some others in my branch.  Now, before you begin the lecture, <smiles> I do know that I choose my own reactions and that only I can change my mindset and how I respond to the behaviors of others.  And I am fervently striving to do so.

With that being said, I have been wondering and praying and trying to determine where to draw the line between a test of faith, and forgiving others for faulty behavior that affects both me and my family.  Does it matter?  Am I over thinking?  Are they both a test of faith? 

I'll let you know when I obtain an answer.  I've already forgiven any and every one that needs forgiving on my part, but am concerned that the trial continues.  The situation continues.  Praying daily that I  can find within myself the power to change what I need to change to help my family and  be who Heavenly Father needs me to be for Him.  I'll get there. 

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Either Or

Today started out lovely and I had a couple of wonderful, strengthening moments at church, but this evening has gone very badly.

So I've decided.  I either need somewhere good to run away to (all expenses paid, of course) or something positive---REALLY positive to happen.

Any ideas????

Thanks for the shoulder.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

2 of my top 5 favorite people.  My daughter Jessica and my dear friend Vicki.  Don't they look like they love me too!

Monday, August 22, 2011

The Lord works in mysterious ways

Just been thinking lately,  sometimes I dislike folks--at least think I dislike them.  And in those moments when I'm reflecting and pondering and asking for help from Heavenly Father in liking someone I find distasteful, He reminds me that I actually DO like them.  It's just that they've hurt my feelings or offended me in some way.  I will then at least try to forgive the offense or "choose not to be offended", and I am suddenly overwhelmed with empathy and understanding for that same person that just a few moments ago I was ready to strangle. 

Other times when I am disenchanted with the communication that is or isn't happening between my husband and myself, or some other family member, someone in my family will do something that is the most "perfectest" thing, or make me laugh, or be supportive about something I was worried about, or just be a little quieter that day and it helps me through the trials.

Interesting how when I feel I've hit my limit and something has to change, I have the presence of mind to at least say a prayer in my heart, and help is there.  Not always solving the problem, but helping me deal with it or forget about it for a few minutes and remember the positive things of life.

That's one of my favorite things about the prayers I say only in my heart of hearts.  Heavenly Father answers them, just like the ones I say "officially", but they mean so much more, because they tell me He is listening and He loves me.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

Sorry to be political, but when I saw this I couldn't resist. 

Monday, August 15, 2011

To comment or not to comment

Okay so--yesterday in Sunday School our teacher asked if anyone had made a big difference in our lives just throughout the course of fulfilling their calling.  (I'm a member of the LDS church, which is volunteer run.  When someone fills a position in the church, we refer to that as a calling.)  I raised my hand and told a story about my youth and a young bishop who counseled me in matters of selecting good friends.  I took his advice and my life was forever changed. 

Now--admittedly, I tend to not be as talented as lots of other folks when it comes to telling stories, but I do eventually make my point.  After I shared my experience, there was like an entire moment of silence and then the teacher went on to the next topic.  So in my over analysis mode of thinking, I can't help but wonder if I should not have shared this story, or if I shared it incorrectly.   Meaning, not hitting on the right points.  It's very possible. 

How do you decide?  What's "too" personal?  Isn't one of the purposes of learning as a part of a group putting yourself "out there"?  So that we can all learn from each other?

I am so NOT upset about this.  I honestly find it amusing.  I'm just me and these folks are so used to that, I'm not sure I could shock them even if I tried. Unfortunately however, I think all anyone learned from my sharing in Sunday School yesterday was not to share things like that!  Glad I could help in some respect anyways!  HA HA HA

That's one of the things I love about my branch.  They've seen me through the ups, the downs, the inbetweens.  I've been proud, embarrassed, ashamed, made fun of, bragged on, scolded, laughed at, laughed with, and even barfed on (thanks Macey!).    If I embarrass myself or share something too personal or not say it right, it just turns into a "Wendyism" and no one thinks twice about it.  What a blessing that Heavenly Father has provided this group for me at this time in my life, so that I can grow into the person He needs me to become!  So grateful!  Even if I did over share just a little. 

Friday, August 12, 2011

I love Jane Austen romances

I just do.  I've read all the books numerous times (this is me you're talking to--I don't count it as read until at least the second time through).  I've seen all the movies numerous times (same aside as above).  I just can't help myself.  The drama, the grand gestures, the special way the women have of absolutely torturing the men.  I must admit though, Mr Darcy will always be my favorite. 

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

Messing around while waiting for Tom to do the "troll hunt" at a yard sale

Monday, August 8, 2011

Creamy Chicken and Spinach Enchiladas

I got this super tasty recipe from another blog I follow and love.  A lovely lady called Nony the Slob.  It looked so yummy I had to try it and it is fabulous!

Creamy Chicken and Spinach Enchiladas

2 cooked large chicken breasts cut up
1 can rotel tomatoes
1 can creamed corn
1 10oz package creamed spinach
8 oz sour cream
1 can green enchilada sauce
1 1/2 cups shredded cheese

Mix chopped, cooked chicken with rotel in large skillet.

Add thawed spinach, corn, 1/2 the sour cream, and 3/4 cup cheese.

Fill tortillas

Place in 9 x 13 pan.

Mix the rest of the sour cream with the green enchilada sauce and pour over and top with the rest of the cheese.  I had a tomato that was ripe, so I cut that up and put on top as well.  Then bake 350 degrees for 20 "ish" minutes.

Okay, so I didn't dish it up fabulously pretty, but it was gooood!!! 

Hope you enjoy it as much as I did!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Pretty much wordless Wednesday

Jessica's "unposed" expression.  This is what happens when your brother is just snapping pictures and talking to you at the same time!  She's still gorgeous!

Monday, August 1, 2011

This song has been stuck in my head all day

I don't understand why, but it's true.

I did enjoy how wonderfully well informed the BYU students are seeming these days.  Hardly anyone is on their toes when they're asked random questions.

Friday, July 29, 2011

I have an opinion

I have an opinion.  I have hesitated to give any opinions on my blog other than testimony, but I am going to speak out on this one.  It is possible I am taking myself and the situation too seriously, but this is how I feel about it and I want to say something.

I have attached a link to a prayer said this past weekend at a Nascar event.  My husband, (a non member and rabid Nascar fan) showed me the video last weekend.  He was so impressed and amused.  I attempted to explain to him how offensive this was to me, but I am not nearly eloquent enough to put my feelings into words.  The fact that a public prayer from one who should be in authority would be such a casual display of attention seeking and self promotion is more than shameful in my eyes. 

I had pretty much let it go and almost forgotten about it completely until earlier this evening when I was watching a show called Trackside on Speed channel.  One of the hosts of this show is named Jeff "Hollywood" Hammond.  He is a former crew chief for Darrell Waltrip, and is an authority on all things Nascar.  I am usually a good fan of "Hollywood", but cannot support him this time I'm afraid.  Mr. Hammond had this preacher on the show and was applauding him for "getting religion out there" and making it fun and casual.  Really Jeff??  Really????

Decide for yourself. 

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Essentially wordless Wednesday

Okay, so my name's Wednesday and I'm almost never wordless, so I feel I am obligated to at least attempt something sassy. 

I am no longer in the above pictured Relief Society Presidency.  I have now been called to serve as 2nd counselor in the Young Women's Presidency.  I super duper miss these sisters!

P.S.--Yes, my name is actually Wednesday.
          No, I was not  born on a Wednesday.
          No, I do not know why my parents named me that.  I asked them.  They don't seem to know either.

Monday, July 25, 2011

A story about tithing

Just a few words about tithing and how my testimony of  this gospel principle was strengthened yet again today. 

I have always, always, always struggled with paying my tithing.  It just always seemed such a hardship before.  I'm not sure why.  I have searched and searched within myself to try and discover why this has always been such a hard principle for me (I tend to over analyze my own behaviors--it's a flaw--I'm working on it).  I have never been able to pinpoint what the issue is.

I was inactive in the church for a while and when I came back and re earned my temple recommend, I promised myself I would  never be without it again.  So--I pay tithing.  No matter what, because I never ever ever want to not be able to go to the temple. 

However, when you keep a commandment, you receive blessings.  So along the way, when I was just doing what I had to do to be able to go to the temple, I started gaining this testimony of tithing.  It's really amazing.  We struggle financially quite a bit at times and particularly the past year or two, and I just kept praying.  "I know I'm paying tithing, I know you'll make sure we have what we need."  And we always do, but almost never in the way I envision or think it will happen.  For instance, when we are short on gas money, someone we give a ride to will fill the tank up for us.  When I have committed to drive to the temple (a nearly $100 expense for the driver), another sister didn't want to do without a/c and volunteered to drive instead so instead of costing $100, the trip only cost me $20--my share of contribution for gas.  When we are short on grocery moneys, we have lots more leftovers than usual and are able to make the food we have last tons longer than it should have.  When we have a new medical debt, the administration reviews our account, and since it has been always in good standing with no payments missed, they agree to tack on the newly acquired debt to the end of our current payment plan instead of doubling our medical expense each month.

The list goes on and on.  Does a check appear in our mailbox or fall from the sky???  Never.  But nonetheless, our Heavenly Father makes double sure that we have everything we could possibly need and then some.  I wasn't even working on my testimony of tithing, I was just trying to retain my temple recommend, and here we are, with a wondrous gift that was once again never expected.

Heavenly Father Loves Me

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Almost Wordless Wednesday

Storm damage July 19, 2011
We had the storm of the year (I hope) last night and I am grateful our home withstood the storm quite gracefully!  The link above is to a gallery of photos in the local paper, and below is one for you troll lovers out there!  Enjoy!!

P.S.--I despise trolls.  They creep me out.  See previous post here.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Random thoughts

1)  Why do boys put garbage on the counter above the garbage can instead of in the garbage can?  Or dirty dishes on the counter by the sink instead of in the sink? 

2)  Why do other drivers cut you off and then slow down?

3)  Today at work, a customer put me on hold promptly after I answered my phone, only to return and give me the third degree because they got a collection letter when their bill wasn't paid?  I "held" for that????

4)  I've never been a bridesmaid.  Sad.  I think it would be super fun.  And you get a new dress!

5)  Why do we have to get dressed up for work?  We just sit at our desk all day.

6)  Sometimes change can be good, bad, scary, and wonderfully exciting all at the same time.

7)  Why do I still second guess myself when I've already received several spiritual confirmations??? 

8)  Why is practicing the piano easy, but so hard to sit down and start???

9)  Why do I hate getting wet?  Am I secretly the Wicked Witch of the West?  And if so, how come I'm not getting any royalties from that book and broadway musical written about my life???  Maybe they don't have my correct mailing address.

10)  Why do I like to eat things other people think are weird?  Like spaghetti in a tortilla like a burrito, or fried eggs on top of ramen noodles, or boiled cabbage with smoked sausage.

11)  How long do you have to read scriptures every day before you can quote them in Gospel Doctrine?  I'm going on 25 years (for the most part) and still can't do it.  I remember the story, and what I learned, but none of the names or the reference.  That has to be some sort of disability.

12)  I never, ever, ever, ever want to live in a big city again.  Or even a medium sized one.

13)  I love my job and find the work fulfilling.  But sometimes it gets so tedious and boring to me that I want to unbend paper clips and jab them into my eyeballs.

14)  Okay--done for now.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

I've learned a couple new things about cauliflower

I have recently discovered some interesting food allergies that have caused a dramatic increase in the amount and type of vegetables I am eating.  A good friend told me this past weekend that you can boil and serve cauliflower "mashed potato style".  With a family full of men who refuse to eat most vegetables, I decided right then and there to give it a try.

My friend advised me to "boil it until it's dead".  So, since I was planning on serving it with pork chops, I put it in to start boiling before I started prepping the meat, thinking it would take until I was about 100 years old.  Well---it was ready before I even got the meat into the pan.  I thought to myself, "it's probably like potatoes where you can boil them a few extra minutes and it doesn't hurt anything."  It hurts something.  I lifted the lid and it was covered with steamed cauliflower goo.  YUCK!!

I quick and drained and smashed the rest of it.  It turned out quite nicely, even though it took me a while to get the salt and pepper right. 

Just another adventure in the kitchen!  If you remember this post,  I did warn you this sort of thing happens all the time!

Photo courtesy of

Thursday, July 7, 2011

How to be a good chauffeur

1)  Volunteer to drive
2)  Tell people who want to go to the Temple that you're willing to drive.
3)  Send an email reminding everyone that your vehicle has no a/c, so they can be prepared for that.
4)  Send another email reminding everyone that you take a sack lunch so that you  can get home earlier.
5)  Send another email reminding everyone that the other sister who volunteered to drive actually can't go.
6)  Ask your husband to check the oil in the "g" van.
7)  Fill "g" van up with gas.

YAY!!!  Going to the temple on Saturday!!

Be there or be square!!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

A surprise recipe

This past weekend, a friend gave me some rutabagas that someone had given them from their garden.  I had tasted them before and knew that I pretty much liked them so I brought them home.  The internet said that you can boil them up and serve them just like mashed pertaters, soooooo I boiled and boiled and boiled and put them in a bowl and dumped some sour cream in to make the mashed pertaters as I suspected my very "i don't like spicy food" husband would object to the stronger taste. 

What the internet didn't tell me was that the texture and consistency is very different than a potato.  I ended up with something waaaayyy too saucy to be mashed pertaters, but it tasted pretty yummy, so I dumped it on our plates alongside some sour cream and onion chips and called it dip.

I thought it was fabulous!  I'm actually not supposed to eat sour cream as it makes me quite ill, but had only a few bites and so far, so good.  However, when I asked my husband if he liked it, he didn't even pretend--the answer was a resounding NO!  Oh well, guess I'm not adding rutabagas to the list of things to grow in the garden next year!

Picture courtesy of
Those of you that know me well will not be surprised by this story <smile>.  Those of you who do not know me well, this story is a typical "Wendyism".  Stuff like this happens to me all the time. :)

Sunday, July 3, 2011

I miss her already

This past week I've had my fabulous daughter Jessica here with me all week.  Actually, she was here a week, home/Youth Conference for a week, and then here this past week.  That's tons more time than I usually get to spend with her.  Now she has gone off back to her dad's (and honestly, it's about his turn) and I'm hopelessly sad.  I've been on vacation from work this past week, so it's been all Jessica, all the time. 

I also just received a text message from my husband and he and my two stepsons are staying in LaCrosse tonight, so I'll be all alone all night.

Think I'll put in Anne of Green Gables and have myself a good, cleansing cry!

Friday, July 1, 2011

Brightness Acuity Test

I went to the eye doctor yesterday.  Now, this is usually a tremendously traumatic event for both me and Dr. Scoresby because I have some "issues" with people and things be in and around or touching my face.  This year was much better as I was actually able to allow him to hold my eye open for one of the tests.  However, evidently there is something weird about my left eye.  So, since the specific test I need (brightness acuity test) must be done when your eyes are NOT dilated, and mine were dilated when he discovered I needed the test, I have to go back.  Now my eye feels all weird cuz I know there's something funny going on with it.  Your brain is a powerful organ!  Wish me luck!

Dr. Scoresby--he's not nearly as scary as he looks (ha ha) He's actually not scary at all and his voice is very soothing.

 Here's a diagram of the eye.  Did you know your eye is filled with a "gelatinous substance"?  Reminds me of the movie "Overboard" where she calls the caviar gelatinous muck.  Wonder if it's the same kind of stuff.