Have you ever had a stupor of thought? I have. It's confusing and blecky and frustrating because I feel like I'm not spiritual enough to "hear" the answer. Most times, in my case, I feel I usually experience this because it's one of those things where you're choosing between two good things. When your desires are righteous and acceptable either way, and Heavenly Father is letting you go ahead and "take your shot". Honestly, I'd most of the time rather be told what to do, so these situations are difficult for me. Thankfully, a loving Heavenly Father helps me and I don't have those situations too terribly often.
On the flip side (kind of maybe) sometimes I know something is "wrong" and am unable to determine what that something is. Is this because of something I am doing, or is it just a signal that it is time for a change? If so, what needs to change? Am I doing something wrong? UGH!! I just pray and read scriptures and talks and it more often than not works itself out before I have to be committed to the insane asylum. I'm always afraid that its me. What if someone else misses a chance to serve or obtain blessings because I made an error? Or wasn't worthy or listening? Thankfully again, a loving Heavenly Father helps me so this doesn't happen too terribly often either. Its happening now, however, and I'm definitely beginning to feel the strain. Perhaps I'm struggling because the problem isn't anything I have control over. Could this be the case? We'll just have to wait and see I guess.
In other news as I seem to be in a rambling mood today--I did not receive an email message requesting I give a talk this past Sunday. I agreed to do what I could from the time I walked into the building until the time for my talk and it appears to have gone well. Again, thankfully a loving Heavenly Father helped me in a time of need, or helped those in the congregation. However you want to look at it I suppose. Heavenly Father sure takes good care of me!